#TruthBooking: In therapy this morning, I remarked that waking up today felt a lot like the day of my rehearsal dinner. The details are in place. Long held plans are about to be set in motion. My dress and shoes are poised for their moment in the spotlight. Rehearsals are over. Decisions are made. If a creative idea for tomorrow night's Tower Theatre OKC release show is left undone, it’s probably going to stay that way at this point. The time between when I met and married David was 3 years. It seemed like we waited so long. The anticipation, the excitement, the months of planning. In contrast, I began writing this album of songs 6 years ago.
This record has taken just about every ounce of courage, heart, creativity, and resources I have. Many, many days I wasn't sure if I had it in me to complete. Sometimes the progress felt like millimeters in a marathon. Make one phone call during a day home with fever sick kids. Revise one line of one verse in the carpool line. But each step was a drop and then another that gathered up and became a wave which, to my great surprise, carried me here.
Last night as we rehearsed with the band, with all the trappings of the gospel choir and the strings, I took a deep breath and made an intentional imprint of a memory. The sounds washing over me, the beauty of this thing we created, the blow-me-away level talent and artistry I was surrounded by in the room, the laughter, the bittersweet space that Mike Walker left us to play into... I am so very grateful for this moment, for all of the moments. Tomorrow night will be one to remember. ❤️
The Day Before